Wake me when it's Tomorrow

Ever have one of those days...?

You know the one I mean - by the time you realize you should have just stayed in bed, it's way too late to do anything about it?

Yeah, that's the day I'm having.

It is Friday, tho'.  That's a good thing, right?!  Doesn't the weekend make everything better...?

I'm having cooking withdrawals.  i just don't get to cook like I used to and I miss it.

And the ocean.  I miss the ocean.

And, evidently, I should miss having anything interesting to write about.  Just sitting here, staring at the screen and everything sounds whiny and boring.  Maybe I just need a little mental vacation...visualize warm sandy beaches...fruity drinks with little umbrellas...half naked cabana 'boy'...

Sigh

I used to have this blog...

A long, long time ago...in a galaxy far, far away...

I used to have thoughts that had nothing to do with work or children.  I used to cook and garden.  I used to write and chat with my friends.  Sigh.  I never used to get 150 text messages a day about scheduling, menus, money, service and promotions.  I never used to feed my kid fast food and use cartoons to babysit.  I never used to leave him with "strangers" (ok, not really strangers, but not me and not school) five days a week.  I never used to come home at 9 or 10pm five nights a week.  I never used to miss being a mom (and a wife) so much.

I need a change.  Nothing is worth missing my family.  Nothing is worth the look on my boy's face EVERYDAY when I leave for work and when I come home.  Nothing is worth the tone in my husband's voice when he asks how late I have to work "this time". 

I want my family back.  I want my home back.  I want my life back.

So, I'm doing it.  I'm making a change and taking control.  Wish me luck...